why?

Why is my heart betraying me?
Always looking for ways of hurting me
What's the point in this self destruction?
Why are my feelings chasing an illusion?
Why do i suffer this much
I guess i'm evil....but this much??
I can't imagine myself gettin' old
So i have to cherish every moment as gold
My body feels the strain
Death is coming like a train
And i think it's not gonna be late
So i'm doing my share of loving and hate
I don't care about hurting people
My heart is beatin up...i can't find it's purpose
It's useless and it complicates things
So i guess i don't need it
I think i'm gonna get rid of it
And see what life brings..