still......

Smokin' like usual feeling unusual
My life speeds up while i'm in neutral
Starting to realize dreams aren't get realized
I'm tryin' to keep it true but thats hard to take trough
But how could i keep it true when my dreams aren't gettin' true
That's what i realized in the start of my fucked up life
I'm 20 know whit one tattoo
I want to get more before i'm 22
My parents don't know it and they wouldn't agree
Because they raised me right,wel i not agree
My father wasn't there and my mom was too busy
So i went out got beatin up by bullies
Wel that's what ur gettin raisin' up in da streets
Streets gave me love trying to teach me
Guess they did wel considering where i'l be
Enjoyed being a thug,having a family
But my dreams say i should act differently
I've spent so much time just spreading  my knowledge
And now the world pushes me to a ledge
To see if i swim ore sink and i'm right on the edge
And i start to realize that i might not have the edge......